A couple of things:
1) I have always been able to bank on sexual power to get what I want. Now, in a relationship that has nothing to do with power, only mutual trust and respect, I think I have to learn to approach sex in a different way in my mind/life. I don't even know where to start with that.
2) Is weed a shamanistic sort of plant? At first, it made me happy and horny. Now, it makes me think deeper about things. Last night, I missed the kids so badly but I couldn't call them because it was late, I was high and I was upset, which is why they live with my mother in the first place, so they won't be upset by my feeling upset. I guess I'm in an epic miss.
3) I dreamed that I was at a party with Jennifer Lawrence at her house. Someone asked her about her makeup in The Hunger Games and she flicked the movie on. Except in this movie, her love interest was Neil Patrick Harris.
You have some cerebral weed. I enjoy the brainy shit, it helps me work through shit. I use weed for that a lot, actually. I think it makes me a healthier person in that respect. I don't "get high" to goof off, ususally. I use it to tune in to the deeper me, the creative me, without the issuey me getting in the way and tearing me and my confidence down.
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